Familiar (or Residual Effects Part II)

It never ceases to amaze me:
How easily the rifle sits across my shoulder
As if its sling has made a permanent indention
The way I shrug into its weight, and even when
I bend over
I’m careful, unconsciously, so as to protect my barrel
From striking the floor
Or dirt

It is a part of me.

I stand all day
Not noticing the slight lean of my body
The subtle, absent-minded rub
The sudden, terror grab
Because after awhile I don’t even notice it
And fear I may have left it
Somewhere, where I’m not
But it’s still there
Slung across my back
And as I grip it hard and press it close to my body
I breathe a sigh of relief
Because it’s still there

It’s still there

(Residual Effects)


Haiku #15

The modern world fell
Apart and no one knew how
To be anymore

Nag Hammadi Revisited

The effective (affective?) history of ancient wisdom texts canonized in the first few centuries of our current measurement of time culminated in the construction and deployment of two atomic bombs. That same year, other ancient wisdom texts not canonized with no traditional understanding were (re)discovered.

We cannot view culture-forming classics without assessing their historical trajectory/complicity. Nor can we purely view new texts discovered without unconsciously bringing our traditional understanding of similar texts to our reading.

However, we might want to try, since, well, we constructed and deployed two atomic bombs.


Institution/s/autonomous ego
Epistemology (How DO we know what we know?)
Science as the only mode of inquiry/despair
Hugs/hand grenades
Art as revelation
Truth as poetry
Beauty in a mathematical equation


We (can?) change the outcome by observing it